Fall in love with someone who never makes you feel like you have to pull back.
There’s a hole in my chest
Because my heart is on my sleeve.
People need people. No one can be completely and utterly self-sufficient. In one indirect way or another you’re going to need somebody.
Here’s a scenario:
You’re in boarding school down to your last cent and you don’t dare ask for more money from your mother because of so many reasons. This woman is literally doing the most for you and your private school education from thousands of kilometres away. You’re also a little angry at her because you feel abandoned.
You have a father who’s also not your father because he tells you “I don’t have custody over you, that’s not my problem”. Continue reading “Look at God!”
Shake the crumbs of doubt off the linen and onto the floor.
Then sweep it up with the shards of regret dutifully out of the door.
Pat your pillows, to dust off all the salted tears.
Then wipe the mirror so you may properly see and face your fears.
Drown the tiles in the ocean of your heartbreak and hurt.
With this may the valves of your heart be clean from all the dirt. Continue reading “Clean slate”
I pray for you.
You’re my favorite thing to touch and smell.
Did you get home safe?
Me: My kids are going to grow up watching Sesame Street.
Him: Your kids are my kids.
My mouth was full of all the “I love you’s” I had caught in my throat that Fall, that now there was no stopping my tongue. Straddling him in the backseat of his car, I leaned closer to his ear and whispered in a vodka filled breath , “I love you”.
He doesn’t say anything so I say it again. “I love you”.
Silence. Continue reading “Liquid Courage”